To someone who has inspired me immensely.

Nostalgia.
    Sometimes I walk passed the playground  swings ang you’re right there like before. I miss you and us but you’ll never come back again. So  I just should forget the memories. But if the memories are all I have? Then what?

 They  told me to get over you. After all, we were never dating. So I had no right to miss you. But fuck that!!!
    You were. Are. My best friend.  The day you graduate was the most desolate day of my life.
    I’m sorry I  didn’t say bye but we both know I don’t let go Easley. So I didn’t say it and I’ll regret that  for the rest of my life.
    I know in theory, I can face  time you when ever I wish. But it’s not the same.
    Remember hunger games? remember sitting on the grass? Remember when I had that suicidal scare  in school? And how they wanted to take me to hospital but I refused? Remember when I specifically texted you that day?
    Or what about the time your best friend got his girlfriend pregnant? Remember how we all supported him? I wonder how he’s doing ow.
    People told me not to hang out with you but I never listened!!! They thought you to complex because you were from the ghetto. But that’s bullshit to me.
the ghetto is something that white people created because they’re scared of people of color.
    I never cared about where you were from. Or the ghetto. I cared about you, and  what you felt.
    I’m sorry you’re so misunderstood. I’m sorry there’s a chance that you could get shot walking down the street and I can’t protect you. If I could, I would. That  terrifies me. The thought you getting shot.
    I know I can’t protect you from the cops but I’ll try. But I promise you one thing. If you do end up getting shot I’ll testify. I’ll never stop asking for justice.
    Remember when I was 12 and I wanted to do drugs?  You told me that drugs wouldn’t solve anything so I listened.
    I just miss being kids, and the smell of grass,  as we played. I just want that back. But changing time is futile  and wont’ work.
    But you know what? I have the memories and the nostalgia.
    I’ll always love you. You’ll always have me.

Just know if I wanted to be inspired by anyone. I’d choose you.  
Love from Jade.
    Author’s note, Uh… inspired by several real life events. Like? Hate? Comment down below what you thought. Also I’ll be posting another creative writing post so keep on a look out.

Stay safe.